Hey
so this is my first time at this whole blog thing
I know I know im insanely late for the blogging bandwagon by a few years. never found the use for it before and now i realise who cares who reads it and what its about just write it out whatever is happening and going on and maybe someone will relate, who really knows or cares even.
I dont think anyone will relate well at least not in my age group everyone i know is getting married having babies starting amazing careers working there way up in the world going on awesome trips. then theres me I live in my parents basement with my bf and our dog, have no money to do anything of anysorts. A big deal for us is if we can afford to eat pasta with sauce ( normally its just pasta with butter on it) yea i never did what i was supposed to i should of went to school for something but never did maybe i will in the future if money permits. right now jsut trying to switch jobs is hard enough all my exp is in something that i hate but theres alright money to be maid if i could make that commitment but really i cant and i dont want to its not something i want to be stuck in for the rest of my life i jsut want the moneyh adn the vacations and everything everyone else just seems to have i have no idea how. they jsut seem to end up with it. my bf is like the least ambitious person i know he wants the stuff but is just as satisfied making min wage rentin an apt for the rest of our lives.
honestly i want to jsut know how you get some in life not just it all.
I have yet to join onto the whole though of twitter cant really wrap my head around why you need to be updated instantaneoulsy to the world. how do you even have time to process what your typin at that point so its not jsut mumbojumbo really?
like this blog i really have no idea. If anyone is reading i honestly dont know how to feel about that.
I jsut realised how depressing this blog sounds now holy shit this is all i have to say is what i dont have.
I cant lie my life isnt that horrible my bf loves me more then he prolly should and same even though i have a crazy personality
whats with this job thing anyways all they want you to do is apply online, cause you can relaly tell what im like by a nice personable email, wtf i dont think so.
Im really a good learner and since I want a job in the all alluring office reception world i would do anything for it. and all these people with all there experience end up with it even though id probly do a better job than them since ive been coveting those jobs for awhile im even willing to take a chunky paycut for them which sounds idiotic but to get the experience you sometimes have to.
Maybe well go get married this wknd it would be something to do, 300 and then your married on a about under the falls, sounds pretty romantic i guess but what would getting married do relaly i dotn get the point. I want the party and the FOOD ohhh the food, but not the paper that says your bound together and in todasy world getting married is like an omen on your relationship. people get divorced all the time. maybe im overthinking this so that means i should not do it no reason to no reason not to.
The whole baby thins is another story we got preggo once a few years ago and then miscarried and now he doesnt want to try till were like 30 or extremly rich. I dont want to wait till then i think we should start TTC now or just seeing what happens but he says hes to young i dont get what waiting 2 yrs is gonna do except hurt our chances of actually having one and personally i dont want to be old parents you knwo the ones i have old parents there the age of some of my friends grandparents it does make a difference
were not super young and we have the dog and a good relationship the money is one thing and i know its a big thing but were generally happy so who knows
looks like were getting a new couch found a decent one for free on kijiji
oh how i love kijiji half of our apt is kijiji or side of the road and ikea gotta love ikea
we even got our dog for free off facebook.
gotta lvoe technology whatever i want type it in and there it is
except a baby and no babysitting doesnt make it go away i get so many people telling me you dont have one so you dont know, its like come on dont rub it in its not like i havent noticed i dont have one. but i have been around lots of them and want one and know soem stuff about them, basically as much as you can know without having one
so who knows i guess i should work on getting a job first, no im not one of those people who doenst work had the same job for 7 yrs just quit cause i figured i needed to jump to make myself change i want a new career. so hopefully that goes well!!!!!
I used to know everything, now i know nothing about everything, wishing i knew something about anything.
AB
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